100 reasons why i miss Carrie today

1. car-dancing

2. late night Office marathons

3. how we were always either hobos or clowns for halloween

4. scaring the crap out of her while she's brushing her teeth

5. learning the "seize the day" dance

6. no one making fun of me for wanting to learn the "seize the day" dance

7. farming game

8. fumble

9. dirt clod game

10. mailbox

11. love potion number niyiyiyiyine

12. when she looks at me with a lazy eye

13. the training headset

14. one time, in harry potter...

15. stagnant alligators (gna gna gna)

16. finishing each other's...

17. ...sentences

18. newsies

19. accepted

20. she's the man

21. empire records

22. stake dances

23. gray shirts

24. fleshy trunks

25. being the first ones to know about napolean dynamite

26. being the first ones to know about the numa numa song

27. being the first ones to raise our hands at stake dances

28. being the first ones to slap the ground during the electric slide

29. 32+8=40

30. how funnel cake makes us want to barf

31. how nair makes us want to barf

32. bass pro shop

33. arguing about the saturday chore list
34. tricking her into telling me what she got me for christmas
35. when we got roller blades for christmas and we rode all over town with them
36. using our knee/elbow pads for said roller blades as ice skates
37. "earnest holidays" at grandma's house
38. psych
40. she's an incredible long-jumper (pretty sure she set some kind of a record)
41. primary song karaoke
42. making bracelets
43. if there is any leftover pizza anywhere ever, carrie will eat it. (really?)
44. how we both detest janice kapp perry
45. the best spring break ever, spent in provo, while i barfed all week.
46. the rescue raft
47. taking "pictures" in the bathroom mirror
48. fantasia
49. swan princess
50. beauty and the beast
51. girl's camp
52. putting up with the annoying kids next door so we could play on their trampoline
53. how she always wins monopoly
54. how i always win chess
55. making fun of people everywhere we happen to be
56. making fun of people secretly to their face
57. we have the same awesome taste in shoes
58. the time i tried to make her mountain climb with the jump rope and the swing set
59. track/xc
60. our stylish hairdos in elementary school
61. our really stylish outfits in elementary school
62. how mom loves me better
63. the first time we ever flew/why i never make a lollipop sound with my mouth
64. she's a pretty choice piece of real estate
65. the musical episode of Aurthur
66. how we always get hit on when we go to Sam's
67. how we have perfected the art of multiple sampling at Sam's
68. playing in between the aisles at Sam's
69. she was once in the worst movie ever.
70. the odd things that happen to us in libraries
71. hey. how was your weekend?
72. Wang
73. Chang
74. she writes me songs for the lonely, but not by cher
75. she has an answer when i ask "you fool, it cant be done!"
76. we could never be in hufflepuff
77. the grape game
78. i woke up sunday morning, and looked upon the wall, the bed bugs and the cooties, were playing a game of ball. the score was six to nothing, the cooties were ahead. the bed bugs hit a home run, and knocked me out of bed, i'm singing. eenie meenie and a minie mo. catch a whipper snapper by the toe and if he holler waller wallers, don't let him go, i'm singing, eenie meenie and a minie moe.
79. like totally, for sure, i just got my manicure! the sun, i swear, its bleaching out my hair! 32, 24, i dont know that stupid score! go, go, fight, fight! gee, i hope i look alright!
80. golden throat? this is jazz square. we may have a problem.
81. what the heck are those two doin in a tree?!?
82. riding our bikes down "dog alley"
83. sweet tart slushes
84. tootsie roll slushes
85. never ever finding the candy aisle in Reasors
86. she is smarter then me
87. she is motivated in everything she does.
88. she has a wicked sense of humor
89. she was there when my daughter was born
90. she is way cute
91. she has always been there for me when i needed her
92. she is one of the best examples of friendship in my life
93. she has never let me down
94. she makes me happy
95. she's my best friend
96. she makes me want to be better
97. she is my other half
98. she misses me
99. she loves me unconditionally
100. i love her even more

my inner struggle

Those of you who see me often probably notice that my hair changes alot. I usually get bored with it about once a month, and have to do something different. That is why my hair has been colored 5-7 times and cut 2-4 times since Portia was born. I realized that I have been trying to find the happy medium between edgy and hip, and being a mom. My problem is that I want to look like what I am: a hair stylist. I adore crazy colors, dramatic cuts, and obnoxious styles. I am never satisfied with my hair when it is symmetrical, or all one color. In college, I once came across a picture of Joss Stone (above), and I loved her hair. I admire her courage and style, and her ability to pull something like that off. I desperately want my head to look like that. But do I dare put hot pink, purple, and red streaks throughout my entire head? No, because I have a strange fear of Portia, when 15, looking at pictures of her mother and thinking, "What an idiot." So, for now, I'll have to be content with being a brunette. Hmmm, maybe with slight hues of violet and red.

General Conference

General Conference is this weekend, and I am beginning to get excited! I love listening to the messages from our priesthood leaders, and feeling the unique spirit that comes from their words. I love joining with family to learn and grow together, not to mention playing conference bingo! But my favorite part of General Conference is by far the music. Music is such a huge part of my life; the choirs stun me.
When I went to BYU, I had the opportuninty to attend conference once. I was thrilled to listen to the prophet speak in person, but listenening to the Mormon Tabernacle Choir sing "Come Thou Fount," with the perfect accoustics of the conference center, took my breath away. The Spirit was so strong, I felt my heart singing along with the choir.
I can't wait for this weekend, to hear our beloved prophet's voice, and the hear the many voices joined together in hymns of praise.